I'm Sorry

The past few days, my heart was actually flowering up. Beside thinking of when will "X" come online after disappearing from the "technology world" for a few days , I chatted with "A" on facebook. I even texted with "A" and I thought to myself.. Is this like a back-up plan? Is God giving me another road/ path to walk on? I even had visions of what a great time we would have though I have never met "A" in person before. But I was actually too naive and I felt like I have cheated my feelings and "X" just by thinking about "A". The next morning, "X" came online and after a few minutes, he chatted with me on facebook and I felt so happy! Then slowly, the feeling of guilt slowly came rushing into my head and heart. "What have I done?", "How could I do that?", I thought to myself. My feelings for "X" is still a secret though "X" actually told our friends that "we are in love" in a joking manner but.. What can I do to make it up to "X" ?